Feeling inspired
How long have I been dead?
Where have you been?
There is so much to be said
I long ago left you
Tried to fight your existence
You tore and you screamed
I ignored your persistence
You must have felt so sad
So alone and abandoned
You must have felt so hurt
And so slowly you hardened
Forced to live in a prison
No way to be seen
Forced to sit back and watch
Wishing it were all just a dream
But it wasn’t a dream
I continued to ignore you
To pretend you weren’t there
And sometimes even deplore you
But suddenly you could see
I started to listen
At times I’d stop in my tracks
Hear your words, see your vision
So you inched your way forward
More confident with each step
Until I was willing to greet you
And found a way to accept
That I’d pushed you away
When I needed you most
My true inner voice
My heart and my soul
I see now you were there
All along waiting for me
No judgments or questions
It’s all part of my story
So now I move forward
It is you I desire
For it is all cause of you
That I’m alive and inspired
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Jennifer, very powerful, moving. I have been thinking about the idea of desire and the mindful way. I'm going to come back to this text again. You are a gifted writer, showing vulnerability and emotion. Gutsy. Tom
Seeing myself in this way was life changing for me. The moment I became mindful of how disconnected I had become I was able to begin my journey toward reconnection. Thank you for connecting me with this aspect of "Finding Me"